We never went to Barnes they had messed up on the appointment. They had us down for just an office visit and not a scope. So we decided to wait till next Tuesday to call we should know more about where we stand and future appointments. Another big scan Monday. If all is a go chemo stops for awhile and radiation begins. He looks like he has measles. We have cream and medication, but it just hurts. His showers are an ordeal. He is a trooper, on a good note his fingernails so far have not fallen off. So next week is maybe a week of change in our routine.
All the kids and grand kids were here for Mother's Day. Honestly it was bitter sweet. Last year mom was in the hospital. When she begged to go home....I took her home and she took her last breath with my cheek next to hers. This little woman was so amazing. She was blind , with heart trouble and was in the middle of everything. She NEVER used an excuse for anything. If you was going someplace so was she if you were doing something crazy she would help you. Blessed, I was my dears so blessed to call her momma. I could use her insight right now and her strenght. Faith oh my I don't know how many times the Dr. told us she would not make it.And never phased her. She would say its not over till God says it is. She lived 30 years after they said she give 15 at the most. I need her so badly right now. Sometime I try to think of what she would say to me. Her voice still rings in my ears. I think she would say "Ruthann straighten your self up. You need to do all you can and then trust God. Grandma would say, youngun sometime you walk thru fire and God puts it out in His own time. I think I am the weak link among the women of our family.
Now I am off to my earthy chores and yes I Am thankful I can still do them. May your burdens be lighter this week and you are blessed with belly laugh. hugs sent your way.
