Thursday, April 23, 2015
This chemo week is kickin Mike's tail. The new drug may have his finger nails fall off and terrible acne. So far its sleeping non stop and cranky. I understand both. We are dealing. I have been walking on the deck so he can holler if he needs me. Sad to say my old trail may be to much for me until I build back up. I am crocheting a bebop cardi now and will get back to breast cancer scarves when I am done. What does one do without God and yarn???? smiles. I took the pump off today so I am hoping it will get better in the next few days. Hug to all my dears.
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
I will take what we got. Really no defintive answer,but nothing scary was said. They want another pet scan, but have to wait to see if the insurance will pay for it. We started another chemo drug, and hes cranky (totally understand). He came home exhausted . My heart justs aches for him. I am just relieved they didn't say it had spread. You really do live your life day by day. I crocheted some while he was in chemo just to keep from crying. I have fought it all day. Miss my mom so very much. Her Irises are blooming. I always cut some for her and put them in a vas with my bridal wreath branches. Next month it will be a year. ON to the postive. Mike's leg looks great and he gained 2.1 lbs. We are hanging on to the side of our hill so enough said. love to all. Enjoy your week my dears.
Monday, April 13, 2015
We went to Bub's house this weekend. T had a baseball game and then was baptized on Sunday. Mike couldn't to so he stayed at the house. I felt horrible leaving him. Thats not going to happen again. I was miserable with worry the whole time I was gone. He was doing fine and wanted me to go. I kept thinking of the night of the blood clot, and so many what ifs. He has the scan tomorrow. I want it and I don't if its bad news.... you know what I mean. This last time was a rough chemo week. All in all we are hanging on and trusting. A dear dear friends dad died of cancer. Her dad was there sometimes when Mike took his chemo. Reality. May you show and recieve kindness this week. hugs and love sent.
Saturday, April 4, 2015
May you remember this day for what it is. Like the song says, He Lives He Lives. We had a wonderful Easter a day early, so everyone could be in their own services on Easter. We had Nan's baked beans and Nan's potato salad, and I baked a ham. The girls all brought so many yummy things it was a feast. This is my first Easter without momma. Had me some crying time. Making her dishes should have comforted me, but it didn't. I am an old woman and yet I miss my mommy and daddy.
Grand kids had a big old time. Hunted eggs played hide and seek it was a really nice time had by all. Big Mike held up and is watching his Wild Cats now. Next week is chemo week so we are in for it. Busy week ahead many appointments and things we have to get done. We get a new roof on the house, gutters the whole works the first of May.
I finished the poncho and it is in a box to be mailed. Now I am making something I want to make, a baby dress in a very pretty yellow.
So all in all things are going pretty good. I am hoping Mike gained more weight. He is doing more and more. He still has a limp with his leg, but I believe its better. If you prayed for us may God bless you.
This new week that's coming I wish you comfort and love....
Sunday, March 29, 2015
Its windy and cool here. I have already had my walk in so its on to my lovely Sunday afternoon. Mike has been sick from the chemo this time. I think it is leveling off now. Hes been on the couch and bed for 3 days now. I keep whisper/praying ....please God let him be alright. He seems in good spirits most of the time. I am hanging on to God's Hand and trusting. I am fixing a big country dinner for him tonight. I pray he will enjoy it and not make him sick. Next week all the kids will be here for Easter on Saturday. We hide eggs and I have everything I need to cook the Easter feast. May your week be filled with happiness and a dash of fun.. remember us.
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Bracing for another week of chemo. The week we don't have to go is sheer bliss. I had forgot to make 2 appointmewnts at Barnes and I will do that in the morning. I am forgetting many things here lately. I have been coping better, but ever so tired. Guess I am making this about ME. Wp. helped out in the yard yesterday. The grandkids picked up all the limbs that had blown down. They were such a big help. To be honest there is no way we could have gotten the yard picked up. The off chemo weeks He does pretty well. I can't believe we have till the end of May with just chemo. So thankful to God things are going well. May your week be filled with many delights and joyful things.....wish it back. Love and prayers
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
WP. is doing well next chemo is March 24th. No throwing up so far. Hes been sitting on the porch some. Melt down was me. I just have been crying up a storm I mean the way you did when you were a kid and sobbing was involved. This is way more than I ever share, but found out someone else that is going through this,and is reading the updates.. I do it when I am alone, but crying is apart of who I am now and I hate it. I am going back on a very mild low dose helper from my Dr. I hate I mean hate the fact I can't cope without some help. I needed it when mom was put on hospice.....I saw her through that so pray for me that I can be all I need to be to all the people in my life. So to this gentle twin I have out there .....see my dear I am not just all that. I to have my weakness. Had another mimi stroke so just factor that on to my ramblings today, Pray for me as I do all of you I know stop by . love big big hugs sent .